Worry Hour

Most of the things I worry about never happen. Many of the things I don’t worry about do. I find this very worrying!” Rabbi Lionel Blue

Sometimes, I wake up worrying, and I know without looking at the clock that it is 4am. Worry Hour.

This is nothing new. Worry Hour used to feature work triva; worst case scenarios playing out in my brain. Events I’m running going hideously, humiliatingly wrong. Situation Normal All F.U.

These days, it’s all about cancer, and every twinge is terminal.

I have an ache in my abdomen: STOMACH CANCER!
A sharp pain in my temple: BRAIN TUMOUR!
An over-large freckle: MALIGNANT MELANOMA!
A numbness in my arm and leg: OH NO – I’VE GOT MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS AS WELL!!
Chest pain and racing heartbeat: HEART-ATTACK TOO!

And this is an interesting insight – because this must be how hypochondriacs feel all the time!

Worry Hour lasts exactly one hour, after which I go back to sleep, and when I wake up the sun is shining, birds are singing and all’s right with the world.

Next week it’s back on NHS time. Monday: blood-tests; Tuesday: oncologist; Wednesday: chemo no 4. It’s a different drug this time – docetaxel. Some people report more side-effects with this one. We’ll see.

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Anonymous
    Aug 23, 2010 @ 06:00:10

    I have a 'worries hour' too but miner is usually at 2am and usually involves the kids! Good luck for your treatment this week. Lucyx

    Reply

  2. Anonymous
    Aug 26, 2010 @ 08:26:29

    My worry hour starts at 3am – the time in the film 'The Exorcist' when weird things happened. Don't know why!
    Julie

    Reply

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