Reasons to be fearful

Hello new followers and thanks for all your positive thoughts, prayers and messages of support.

Just been to see the surgeon who scared the hell out of me by listing all the things that could possibly go wrong. But as JP says, if a pilot told you everything that could go wrong before take-off everyone would get off the plane.

People have asked what I am scared of. Ultimately it boils down to two things (both very unlikely):

  1. Fear of waking up in the middle of the operation
  2. Fear of not waking up at the end.

So it’s fear of fear and fear of death.

The scary thing about death is you go there alone, and although many people have gone before you they’re not in a position to tell you what it’s like.

That said, I feel propelled by a surge of good will which makes a power of difference in over-riding fear.


1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. Anonymous
    May 17, 2010 @ 15:54:11

    Fear is the real killer. You've got good reason to be scared right now but some people live out their whole lives in a kind of freefloating fear. Feel the fear! That's what you're doing. You will be ok.


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